Gratitude

Today in the afternoon as I was  relaxing on my favorite couch, I  happened to rewind  the years of my life which just passed away in a flash…As my life was unfolding in my thoughts , there were varied  emotions associated with respective  incidents  in the past ….The only consistent emotion  was the” emotion of gratitude”…Suddenly I felt  a sense of deep  gratitude for people who are very close to me ,close to my heart.

I feel lucky to have them to be a part of my family/my life.…I could n’t have asked for something/someone better  .

Thank you all!

Learning to Unlearn

Even after so many years – even after stumbling on the same blocks – even after promising myself infinite times – the same things are repeated. Just wondering how much control  is required at times on oneself  for not letting the  past repeat itself. Incidents will happen again and again and it is the reaction to them which will decide the ending of those events. If the reaction is different it will generate a different feeling within you, making you not feel guilty of  committing the same mistake again. Phew!!!! was that very complicated???

Here I am,  learning new chapters in life . Learning the equation of action and reaction…There is a strong realization that has dawned upon me …. … “passiveness“. This was totally lacking in my life.  Though in my opinion this is a negative term but at times it acts as a boon which if not used at the right moment can create a volcano around and end up even burning yourself. Let the moment pass in passiveness and the urge to react will also die.

Thus giving it a different ending altogether. May not be the correct one but definitely a happy one

Innocent wonder

Motherhood has given  a whole new direction to my thinking . A newly found emotion which was dormant for so many years has become the strongest . Selfless love, multitasking, working out of my comfort zone 24*7, sleepless nights, being an entertainer, teacher, cook…the list goes on… and still loving that tiny being is an overwhelming emotion . Blessed with a baby girl 11 months back, I am enjoying every milestone that she has overcome. Turning back, crawling, sitting, standing and now walking and talking…..Oh My God! It seems like it was just yesterday that the doctor handed me a tiny doll and I just couldnt take my eyes off her. Almost a year has passed by and my baby has now grown into a toddler displaying her own identity and personality.

Her eyes are constantly  filled with wonder and she has a continious smile on her face. Given a choice I would like to stay in the wonderland with her where every thing is a wonder…watching a bird , a barking dog, rains, swaying trees….(things which I seldom noticed before). We adults are just too busy to notice all this natural beauty due to our preoccupied minds. I have learnt from my baby not to take these little things for granted and be grateful to the things around me which make me wonder.

Everyone is born with the heart of a child and wonder in their eyes but these qualities disappear as we tread the path of life. After being with my baby, I realised that I have lost those innocent values somewhere. She unknowingly fixed them for me. I would like to thank her for this and now would never let the child in me vanish again.